Dunia kolot

My head keep thinking
but I hate what I think

I am a lover
but I hate the things that I love

I am a listener
but I hate what I heard

I like writing
but I hate what I have wrote

I always crying
and I hate the things that I cried for

I am a reminder
but I hate what I can remind

My life is full with emotions
but I hate all the emotions that I always get

I always laughing
but I can't stop when I start crying

I love him..
but he doesn't love me

I think I have love
but I don't know where it is

I wanted to change
but I don't know where to start

I need help
but I keep pretending that I don't

I want you
but I'm afraid of loosing

I need you
but you are so far away